Meeting new people

There are a lot of people I wish I didn't have to meet
it is a bit selfish
it is a bit short sighted
but its the way I feel a lot of the times
what's the point of meeting someone
getting close
only to have them become just a bittersweet memory
something great but untouchable anymore
if I didn't have them in my memory
I wouldn't be so caught up in that moment or place in time
the places they've been wouldn't be as painful to walk through
the smell sights are all the same but where are they?
every time you have to leave someone, do you get a bit more cold?
do relationships become a bit more cheap?
do you become more withheld?
I do.
I hate moving around and people moving around
a weak plant that's moved around different pots is going to die
nothing is going to grow to what it can grow to
people start to become just another friend
I miss the people I've had to leave in the past
and I don't want to have more of them
we should just stay together forever
even into heaven, the way it was suppose to be.

*update* I no longer think this way, see next post for details