Mistakes in thinking

*attention* I have changed my post "rainrock" to include the real reason my grandma named me that way

Yesterday, in my moment of frustration I banged out the previous post
I was experiencing some friends leaving as well as some that were recently distanced from me and some that will be distanced from me.
thinking back though
I don't agree with my former self on a lot of the things I said
I was just fresh off of memory, and it gave me a narrow minded sight.
the parting is a very bad reason to loose out on everything else, and I'd be cutting off paths to develop a lot of meaningful relationships that can be continued if I wasn't so passive and lazy.
All that stuff about being more cold is nonsense
I'm just too lazy to work hard to keep the relationship sometimes.
God has called us to love one another.
I pictured a random person in the street today
he or she is a stranger to me
but imagine I knew them and we had a wonderful history together
even if it was before in a far away time.
parting is hard, but there are some things that are worth being hurt for. Like taking a needle shot or building muscles to name a few things.
I then pictured if I didn't know some of my far away friends
terrible.
what was I thinking?
reminds me that I should never make decisions in my emotional states.
but pray to the Lord in these times.
to lean not on my own understanding, but to acknowledge him.
Yesterday, I quieted my heart and prayed,
"coincidentally" I was contacted by a few friends from far away and here immediately, and I talked with a few too who showed me my error in my thinking. Their sharing was so encouraging and they hit the spot with much accuracy.
one of them was a friend who I always had a physical distance with and only meet for a bit, and another was one who I knew I had to leave here in Singapore :P very very interesting huh wouldn't you say.
God is really really faithful as this time has shown again.
trust in God's plan of who he brings in and takes out of my life.
... and besides...
some people are impossible to distance :)