Jealously

Jealousy is a very strong emotion, and emotion only.
It is closely followed by anger and depression, and is centered around my selfishness.

Jealousy sets my imagination free. It subtracts my logic, and allows a school of negative thought to swim through my head.

so I sit there going through them, and I find myself getting angrier and angrier after each thought.

before I blow up, my anger transforms into depression.
My inability to keep what I was afraid of loosing.

I don't like being jealous.
but it always seems to get the better of me.

I need to trust more, and ask for more faith
Love is not Jealous said the Lord.

Cannot co-exist

Though read many times.
I never appreciated that God can simply not coexist with sin.
When I accepted Jesus into my life. I had the holy spirit dueling (correction "dwelling") within me.
However, when sin entered through my eyes and my mind.
ensuing was a struggle within.
Each seem to be repelling the other.
They won't blend, and they can't be compromised.
The vary nature of Sin and God is that where one rules, the other cannot.
I am a witness for that.

If you, like me, have known what it was to rely on Jesus, and to have him as the rock in your life, can fully appreciate the irreplaceable peace his love gave to your soul.
It was how it was suppose to be.

God cannot be with Sin,
in this life or after into eternity.